01 June, 2009

bittersweet.

That’s how I feel at the moment.

As most of you know, we moved back to Joburg in Feb, after spending just under two years in Cape Town. While we were there we bought a house. An awesome house, just what we wanted and in the perfect area. It was your typical beach styled house. Just what I had envisaged when we moved down there. We loved living there. It was the start of our brand new life in the Cape.

Then of course we had to say goodbye. Heartbreaking.

Except my amazing parents decided to keep the house, as a holiday home. How unbelievably awesome is that?

It’s the perfect holiday home, space for all of us, five kilometres from the beach, surrounded by the Helderberg mountains and the Cape winelands. The husband and I are beyond grateful that at least we didn’t have to sell it.

So, what makes me feel bittersweet. Well my parents have made their first trip to the house, since we packed up and left. And a part of me wants to burst into tears, because that should be us there. And the other part of me wants to burst into tears, because I am just so blessed and grateful that we still have this house. So, I am officially a mess today.

I know it sounds silly. I am telling myself the same thing. It’s a house, stoopid, and you can still use it anytime. I think it’s more a symbolic thing, if that makes sense? That was our life. That was the start of our new adventure. So I am feeling a little sad.

Now that I think about it, maybe it’s not the actual house, maybe it’s just dealing with all the emotions about coming back home and starting over…I don’t know…

We did make awesome memories down there. And you know what, thanks to my parents, there are plenty more to be made in that house…

8 comments:

Lindsay said...

We do have amazing parents, don't we? How did we get so lucky?
And you're right, there are so many memories still to be made, can't wait?

Suzi said...

Aww poor thing... I think all of those emotions are perfectly normal! Moving is always a big deal, especially if you are leaving something that meant so much to you! How nice that you didn't really have to say goodbye forever! There's a bright side!

*~! megs !~* said...

That is really, really cool that they bought it!! Just think, you'll always be able to go stay there which you never would have been able to do! And you will make so many new memories there with your WHOLE family..

The Running Golfer said...

I love this post, it says so much of what I`m feeling too. The thing about that house was that it encapsulated our dreams and everything we had worked for. But I have also learned that it is not the bricks and mortar that makes a home, it is US that makes a home. So I am happy where I am now too, as long as it is with you.

I am so thankful to your folks that we would still be able to make use of it and I am so happy that they are having such a great time there. It certainly was good timing all round.

brigitte said...

such a sad but happy post, i love francois reply. you guys have the strongest relationship. like you said, there will be lots of new memories made.

Janet said...

Wow! How special and what a special hubby you have there too! I am sure it doesn't feel right, you not being there, but hey! There's lots of time and lots of memories to be made. Hang in there!

cat said...

It's great that your parents could keep the house. Amazing. I hope you share many happy times there. Crappy weather at present though?

Mom said...

Hi Hayley and Faf
Just read your blog Hayley. I know how you must feel but as we have said the house is all OURS.
Dad and I hope you will be happy with what we have done there and can't wait for you both to go down there and have a break. Love you Mom